The dreaded phone call has been made. I am free of the tyranny of deadlines, but surprised at how sad I was when the call ended. In my worry over my partner's potential disapproval, I hadn't given much thought to missing regular visits with a friend of two years. And she respected my decision, although I think I surprised her a little.
I have yet to feel the relief I'd hoped would come once the call had been completed. Maybe that's a sign of deeper change. And I'm resolved to continue our friendship. I've gotten an e-mail from her already!
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Goodbye to Goals
Tomorrow morning, I'm going to have my monthly phone meeting with my success-team buddy.
We've been a team of two for about a year. I've had some successes but lately, I've been experiencing huge resistance to completing goals by the appointed deadlines. In some cases, I've concluded that pursuing a goal will not take me in the direction I really want to go. In others, the goal pertains to a personal interest. But tacking on a deadline kills my love for it. During our meetings, I sometimes find I'm censoring my true feelings, or agreeing to her suggestions to please her.
So tomorrow, I'm going to ask if we can take a break from regular goals. I have faith my creativity will remain, and some interests return, even if I'm not reporting in regularly. And I think she is in a place that meets many of her personal goals, so she may agree to the break.
On the other hand, she may be disappointed in me and I hate that prospect. Still, I believe it's worth it to see what happens.
But I'm dreading our talk. Hopefully, I'll be able to get some sleep.
We've been a team of two for about a year. I've had some successes but lately, I've been experiencing huge resistance to completing goals by the appointed deadlines. In some cases, I've concluded that pursuing a goal will not take me in the direction I really want to go. In others, the goal pertains to a personal interest. But tacking on a deadline kills my love for it. During our meetings, I sometimes find I'm censoring my true feelings, or agreeing to her suggestions to please her.
So tomorrow, I'm going to ask if we can take a break from regular goals. I have faith my creativity will remain, and some interests return, even if I'm not reporting in regularly. And I think she is in a place that meets many of her personal goals, so she may agree to the break.
On the other hand, she may be disappointed in me and I hate that prospect. Still, I believe it's worth it to see what happens.
But I'm dreading our talk. Hopefully, I'll be able to get some sleep.
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